Jesse Brune's Blog

All Over The Map

April 10, 2007

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To date, this has been my favorite episode. There is a little of everything present this week...ups and downs ... forwards and backwards. It truly is all over the map.

So I think that the most appropriate place to start, as I am sure this topic will be on everyone's mind: What happened to Doug?

Doug got sick. Doug got sick very quickly. Though I am not positive what the exact ailment was, I do know that he wasn't feeling well for a week or so, and after his birthday party he became extremely sick, with what he thought was the flu. He tried to battle the flu with over the counter medication, which made him very dehydrated. Eventually a good friend of his forced him to go to the hospital, where shortly after his kidneys gave out.

Due to the extreme pain of the situation, the medical professionals induced a coma to prevent any unnecessary discomfort. At the end of the episode, he had gained consciousness and seemed to be doing fine. That is all I can say at this time. He was in many people's prayers, and still is.

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Doug affected all of our lives very positively. He was a light of love and generosity. It is always a tragedy when a light like his is put out. We all from the show appreciate your words of love and kindness. He is very very missed.

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Comments

Sammy wrote:

Hi Jesse,

That Jackie is no friend of yours. Ditch her. She deserves to be with Anne Heche.

Peace,

Sammy -- I will even lay off your weight...you've had it rough enough :)

John wrote:

I'm very sorry to hear of Doug's passing. He seemed like a great person and a good trainer. From what we saw he always seemed to have a smile on his face. He will be missed.

carmelgirl wrote:

Sexy Jesse, Just watched this week episode. Dude I think you should Back off of Rebecca and Jackie. Just be her friend and support what ever decisions she makes. I don't think their relationship is a big deal. By the way do you have a thing for Jackie? LOL! Hey maybe it's just me wanting you to to straight. LOL! Why? Why? You are so hot. Oh well Take care and god bless.

Brooke wrote:

Jesse, thank you for discussing--as directly as you can--the nature of Doug's illness. While it's very clear that everyone featured on the show (and undoubtedly many many others) cared deeply about Doug, I find it kind of disturbing that no one anywhere--in the news outlets, on myspace blogs, and in random features on the show--will say how Doug died. Is Bravo asking that you keep details quiet so they can reveal it on the show as a plot twist? I ask because you mention that there is only so much you can say . . . I only wish the network would put aside the drive for ratings and be a bit more open and honest about Doug's situation.

MOE wrote:

I HAVE READ MANY OF YOUR PAST BLOGS AND I HAVE TO SAY YOU WRITE SUCH BEAUTIFUL WORDS ABOUT DOUG. IT REALLY IS SAD WATCHING HIM ON THE SHOW KNOWING WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO HIM NEXT. OH YEAH AND I WOULD BE A LITTLE UPSET ALSO IF ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS LEFT ME IN THE DARK.

mike wrote:

Jesse, congrats to you. You (and Greg) were the only two trainers who began your blog about tonight's episode with thoughtful comments about Doug. On this night where it was announced Doug was in a hosptial from which he would never emerge, here is what your fellow trainers led with.

Jackie - sexy girl kissing.
Peeler - water skiiing, wake baording
Rebecca - sushi, lack of jealousy of Tiffany (really)
Andre - secret diet tip (cut back on carbs - who knew)
Zen - girl kissing, sushi
Erika - jealousy, drama, sexy girl kisses

Edward jefferson wrote:

I love the show. I love the people on the show So. My favorite person is Jesse brue.

Rod in NYC wrote:

This episode was tough to watch, knowing the ultimate outcome of Doug's health. It would appear that to his dying day he found himself helping others (Cheo). I have mixed emotions about Doug having been taken specifically AT 43. The age his parents never made it to, and the birthday beyond which he believed he'd have no other. The latter statement was, in retrospect, to become prophecy.

It sucks and, in some weird way, it's just perfect. It's like his parents came to get their little boy back. He missed and needed them so much. There's no doubt in my mind his spirit is Heaven-bound.

Jesse, sorry to bombard your blog with Doug. I love you, too dude. I can't imagine what it was like to go through it first-person. I think there's great things for you if you know how to use your window well. Good luck with shaping up your physique. You're gonna look even hotter -and probably less approachable- when you hit target weight man! You got some serious "face" goin'
on, babe!

Peace

Jesse Sanchez wrote:

DOUG IS AMAZINGLY HOT!
I CAN NOT BELIEVE JESSE TURNED DOWN DOUG WHEN HE SAID WANNA COME WITH ME..
HAHA I WOULD HAVE BEEN ON IT IN NO TIME!!!

Lisa wrote:

Jesse,
I think you are fun and I always read your blog. I love your comments and you are open about your thoughts. You were totally in the right saying to Rebecca and Jackie in a joking manner "what is going on?" However, when you were not pleased with Doug's comment about you in tvguide, isn't it hypocritical to infer Rebecca isn't mature like Tiffany?

All the best,

Lisa

vidia wrote:

Hi Jesse:
You are so Real I just love you in the show. Thank you for showing that sometimes even trainers have their hard time went it come to keep their bodies in shape.
I understand the way that you feel about this relationship in the working place but you have to give time to Jackie,to see if this is what she really need in her life. A lot of times we look at our friends and we don't want them to get hurt but you can do nothing but br there for them and give them a shoulder to cry went they need it and listen to them when they need someone to talk too.
You are a really passioned person for what I can see and you say what you think and feel and that is what a real friend have to do but don't push away the people that love you and care for you because you don't like what they are doing or because you don't like the person they are with.
I have to say to that I'm really sorry about Doug,for a moment there you guys got to really connect and it was so good to see you talking with him and getting to be friends,that show that LIFE IS SHORT ENJOY THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU THAT CARE FOR YOU AND THAT YOU CARE FOR THEM,YOU NEVER KNOW WENT THEY ARE GOING TO BE GONE.
God Bless You and keep being so yourself ,you always make me smile.
Have a Bless Day:)
Vidia

Vagner wrote:

Dear Jesse,

first off, I can't believe I am the first one posting something here...

just have to say I empathize with you completely.... I've been the gay friend girls rely on and quickly drop when love comes in one too many times.... it is what I can the "bad times shoulder" friend.... share the pain but not the goods...

anyway, I also think you were chosen as the villain for this season (replacing Mimi perhaps?), which I think is insane... last but not least, as a place that tries to build up people's self esteem through workout I have to say that calling you fat (as I felt people did or at least alluded to) was extremely innapropriate... can you improve your weight/BMI? sure... who can't? (Jackie is hot, but borderline Olsen Twin)... there are tons of people that look like you that feel fat (like moi), and having this show telling us that there is something wrong does not motivate me to go into a gym...

you have a fan here!

cheers,

V.

Anonymous wrote:

How is Doug's ex-partner doing?

Dave wrote:

I am sad to hear about Doug. He was my favorite one on the show.

D. Cruz wrote:

I am 38 yrs old and have been a Lesbian for a great portion of my life. I've dated straight women, gay women and confused women. I've been the answer to the deepest question in the back of their minds and I have had LONG and serious relationships... BUT LESBIAN WOMEN DO NOT CASUALLY DATE! Jackie is so wrong about making that comment especially when she is trying to get back into the dating scene.

you have every right to feel how you feel... watching this past episode has made me look at Jackie in a very different way. But people are just that... people. no one is perfect and she'll have to live with the decisions she makes... it just too bad that she can't be as successful in love than she is in her business. but then who is?!

our prayers to doug and cheo... they have a bond like no other!

Shannon wrote:

Ohhhh Jesse...I think you are to hard on Rebecca and seriously there seems to be a little bit of jealousy when it comes to your boss :)..I know your a gay man but seriously I think if the world was a different place you and Jackie would be a couple! lol..anyway, dont worry about being the bad boy this season, everyone has to take a turn being the bad guy! Its your turn sunshine! haha hang in there...and lighten up a little would ya? Your a funny guy it seems lets see more of that..God Bless :)

julie wrote:

TELL IT

gloria wrote:

Jesie,
you seem the only one speaking openly and, honestly about Doug. Please tell us how he died. I loved Doug.I will miss him.

Julie T wrote:

What happened to Doug? Did he die? If so, I am in total shock!

Dain wrote:

Hey...I want the recipe for that morning blended drink offered to the "Sky Lab Rats". It seemed very similar to something I've done, but you guys suggested some additional items that will jump start the metabolism, etc. How can I get the recipe???? LOVE THE SHOW!!!!

Meg wrote:

I'm trying to stay away from reality TV but it is impossible not to watch this show. Love it! Thanks for giving us a little insight into what happened to Doug and for writing so thoughtfully and eloquently.

candace wrote:

jesse: My husband and I are trying to get into shape and being that he is diabetic, diet is the first thing we need to tackle. Any way you can share the recipe for Jackie's protein drink with us? I vaguely remember what went into it when you prepared it. Thanks...and so sorry to hear about Doug...glad you were able to work through the differences and have that closure..BTW, do you ever make house calls?? lol...it was worth a try.

MAYRA wrote:

HELLO JESSE FIRST OFF BACK OFF OF JACKIE AND REBECCAS PERSONAL LIFE. DIDN'T YOU SEE JACKIE'S BLOG SHE THINKS YOUR MEAN SO SHE DOESNT WANT TO BE YOUR FREIND ANYMORE. NUMBER TWO DONT YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT NOW FOR BEING SO MEAN TO DOUG YAH YOUR TRYING TO BE ALL NICE NOW THAT HE'S GONE BUT IT'S TOO LATE HE GONE YOU SHOULD OF BEEN NICE TO HIM WHEN HE WAS ALIVE YOU. I WONDER IF YOU CAN SLEEP AT NIGHT KNOWING THAT. THATS WHY YOU SHOULD BE NICE TO PEOPLE AND NOT BE SO CRITICAL RIGHT NOW WHEN THEY ARE ALIVE NOT WHEN THEY'VE PAST. DOUG WANTED AN OPOLOGY BUT DID YOU GIVE HIM THAT NO.

R. Christian Anderson wrote:

Hey Jesse..... I really felt for you when you were at the Hollywood Highland Center Chinese restaurant. I don't think it was a matter so much that Jackie and Rebecca were seeing each other.... for me, the uncomfortable thing is that Jackie was being openly affectionate in a public space AND in front of the staff. It doesn't matter to me who the 2 people are, whether 2 women, 2 men or one of each, it's just not appropriate for any two people to be kissing in an obviously sexually charged way in a public space. My first thought was "get a room"! Having said that, I love Jackie and respect that she can date casually and anyone she chooses, but it seems she was displaying this to everyone. If she wanted to let everyone know she was dating Rebecca or Tiffany, for that matter... then just say it in the weekly meeting. DEMONSTRATING this in front of everyone is not only in poor taste, it's downright insulting to you, her "best" friend and you had good reason to confront Jackie on it. I do think that Jackie does need some compassion on this. Being single is new to her and she is enjoying her new freedom from the oppressive behavior of Mimi and my immediate thought is that she is simply being demonstrative because of that 4 year restrictive and abusive time. I have a feeling that once the taste of freedom is over, she will settle down and meet a great lady and all will be back to normal with that. Be patient.

About Doug... well, all I can say is that you showed you were a gentleman and you took the high road with him... and thankfully, just in time. I think you now understand where he was coming from and he got to know more about your sensitivities. As viewers and fans of the show, it's so doggone easy to see the whole picture on the show and criticize, but for you who are going through the emotions of it in "real time", it's a whole different experience. That has got to be hard.... but you're doing great and lots of us viewers appreciate that you are sharing yourselves with us and giving us insights on how we would handle a similar situation. Hopefully we will learn right along with all of you.

Contiinued success and good wishes to you!
Christian

hildymarie1 wrote:

Jessie,
Thank goodness you are Doug were at peace. So many go through life and have those black clouds hovering -- you show all of us that one never knows.

I do understand your shock at Jackie and Rebecca. Rebecca isn't exactly the sharpest tool. Jackie lacks that sensitivity gene -- why was she so shocked that all of you -- and her best bud -- would be stunned that she was messing around with an employee???

Irene Agnew wrote:

Jesse, I would be willing to drive up from Huntington Beach just to work out with you!Do you all take on new clients?

reagen wrote:

hey hey! love the show, and you make it that much better.
on another note, i totally agree with you about the jackie thing. i think shes great but what is she thinking? straight girls are bad news for lesbians...they just leave in the end. jackie just got through a long, hard relationship, and now deserves something solid and real.
i love your honestly and how you keep everything so real

Grace wrote:

Jesse - you're the best. Keep it coming. You can be SOOOO funny. I thought you were right on at the dinner table scene. Actually I think you are 'right on' a lot of the time. I am so glad you and Doug patched things up - it was time.

On a side note - do we really need three quarters of the show revolving around Jackie's love life?? I like Jackie but enough is enough. How about some more cooking tips or some tips that might get us lesser mortals off our backsides.

R wrote:

Jesse -
Give the girls a break!!! You acted like a two-year-old. If Jackie wants to date Rebecca that is a decision between the two of them. Be happy for Jackie....after Mimi she doesn't need another bosy girlfriend (Jesse)

Kristine wrote:

I am so sorry to hear about Doug. How awful! What happened? He kept talking about how his parents didn't live past 43. Was it something genetic that took Doug? Also, I would love it if you could send me the recipe for that morning protein shake that was introduced on the show yesterday. I have been looking for something similar and would love to try it! Thanks.

Anson wrote:

Doug will be missed by all of us...He definitely will...Your words about him is just so beautiful...Doug is so fortunate to know you as a friend...

lisa wrote:

I see on the next episode that you are calling Rebecca a slut. What about Jackie? I guess you can't call her one because you work for her. oh well what are you gonna do. I think Jackie was so selfish to treat Rebecca that way in front of everyone (even though I don't even like Rebecca)! Jackie better watch out - what goes around comes around.

regturn wrote:

The most telling thing in this show is how men can deal with female love. Let's face what straight man would ever have two woman hang at a table the way Jackie did. The guys were all jealous of what they could not achieve and THEN COULD NOT DEAL WITH THERE OWN COMFORTABLE FEELINGS ABOUT IT!!! The cool people were like what ever.

patricia trujillo wrote:

I watched the episode last night and was crying most of the time. Doug's mother and I were cousins and her mom was my aunt. I hadn't seen Doug in years and didn't even know he was on tv. His mom and I were very very close and she always talked about Doug and how proud she was of him. I didn't find out he had passed until I watched a previous episode. His mother and dad both died when he was young and we all attended her funeral. I got a little upset on last nights episode because one of the trainers said Doug had no family. He had us and we will always remember him and love him dearly. We are trying to find out if his sister Sandee is still in Californi. If anyone know of her please email me.

Tonya wrote:

Jesse ~

Love ya dude, but lay off the relationship between Rebecca and Jackie. It is their life and they are responsible adults. We, as humans may not approve of the things others do, but we do need to respect them. As Jackie's best friend, I think it stinks that she did not confide in you, however I understand why she didn't.
Happy Holidays!

John wrote:

I'm sad to hear about Doug passing away. Such a loss.

Bobbie D wrote:

I watched the show last night but I did not hear that Doug died. So did I miss something? I hope not. He is a wonderful being. As you are Jess.

Philip Al wrote:

Hi Jesse, i just watched the show, i have it recorded on my dvr coz i love the show so much. At the end of the show it left me asking on what happened to Doug? I couldn't get it out of my mind and for the first time i checked out Bravo TV's site and learned the passing of Doug early this year. I am very sad coz i liked you both so much in the show. He will be missed. Take care Jesse and all the best.

jennifer wrote:

Hey Jesse,
For some reason I am very drawned to you. You are an amazing person, although I don't really know you. You seem so real and down to earth. I will continue to be glued to my t.v. every week. LOVE YA

Jason H. wrote:

Hi Jesse,
I love the show. I think you are so beautiful and you often make me laugh.
Keep it real baby boy.

Trenity wrote:

I have watched your show for the last two seasons and when i heared that doug was in the hospital i went online right away. When i saw that he had past away i cryed for at least a hour. I may not personaly now him but he was a sweet and nice man. I will miss him and he left a impact on all of our lives (meaning all that who watch and admire the show.) and the ones who he saw on a daily basis.i will continue to watch the show faithfully and doug will be missed by me and many others. tell everyone in the gym that we soupport you and will be there for every turn and bump in the road. we love you.

I will be waching........Trenity

Sin wrote:

Jesse,
I love the fact oyu speek your mind on the show cause I was thinking the same about why Jackie didn't tell you about her afair with Rebecca. Ahe is your best friend and it is important to keep that communication with friends. Feelings get hurt when friends keep things to themselves. i think you are great and i think you are a good friend to Jackie.
Love Sin

Rachel wrote:

i have one thing to say.
and that is,

you are truly amazing.

Vivien wrote:

Jesse, I think you have a great hart and I Love the fun you add to the show. I loved the show last year and I started to like the show this year but it's lost all the normal trials and tribes for me. The things I like the most was knowing "gay/straight" couples, friends, life- We all have the same kind of problems. Work Out has turned it to some kind fight for air time; No matter what you have to do or who you have to kiss. I'm going to miss Doug so much, He was a solid man, God has a great new angle.

Juan Carlos (miami) wrote:

I love the show!!! Even If I do not like LESB....., I am gay and they never like us. They find themselves smarter then a guy and they use us for their own interest.
And Rebeca , you are fake and u just wana attention and $$$. Bitch!
Jesse u are great bro, just be less feminine, please? : )

jenny wrote:

My husband and I are hooked on the show. I find every single trainer very interesting and Jackie to be a warm and caring person. However, I do agree with the trainers finding Rebecca and Jackie's relationship awkward. Regardless of a relationship being gay, straight, or bi, they can damage a work environment. The other employees may feel uncomfortable or feel favoritism. Or when that relationship is over, it could have yet another unpleasant impact on the business and trainers. You have to hand it to Jackie though. She's shrewd enough to know what sells!

joe wrote:

sorry to hear about Doug, will miss him

spoon wrote:

Hey Jesse, It is very sad that Doug has passed but now hes not sick and doing better than he ever could. I love watching you and Jackie and the rest of the crew (mostly you lol). I work at at gym and watching you guys and the way you all interact makes me just wanna go out to LA and start being a trainer out there and work for Jackie and maybe Ill become her bitch lol. well have a fabulous day! Peace

anika wrote:

I am sooo sad to read about doug I just watched the episode where you two made up and to hear that he is gone really makes me appreciate life and a part of me misses him and wishes the news were not true. Keep your head up man.

Tiffany Lawrence wrote:

Jesse,
It has been truly forever since I've talked to you, I started watching Work Out last season before you were even hired and when you were I was SO excited. I think all of your friends (even way back then in highschool) knew you'd make it onto the screen one way or another. I love watching the show, and seeing that you continue to be your amazing self is a bonus! You were always such an encouraging force in my life during highschool and I think everyone that works with you on the show is lucky to have you around. I know much of the confidence I developed then (which has stuck with me) is thanks to the people who believed in me like you. CONGRATULATIONS a little late, I knew you'd do awesome things...I love being right.

sweet_blck_fem wrote:

Hi Jesse,
Sorry to hear about Doug's passing. Just know that he is in a better place and that he is watching over you. Be grateful that you guys made up and became friends again.
Let Jackie do her thing with whoever.
Your not fat at all...your cute and dont let anyone tell you anything different.

Ryan wrote:

Jesse,
My name is Ryan from Las Vegas.....you can check me out on myspace at http://www.myspace.com/vegasdean would love to get the chance to hang out if you ever make it to VEGAS or would like to chat.....your bud...Ryan

Geoff wrote:

First of all let me say YOUR HOT!! I love the show, I watched like 4 episodes in a row today and really enjoyed it!! Altough I only saw 4 episodes when I read of Doug's death I felt very very sad. He seemed so sweet and good natured and I'm sure you all will miss him. I def felt you on the whole Jackie and Rebecca situation though;-)!!!

Heather wrote:

I am so freaking sad over Doug's death. I feel so heart-broken. That man was a true example of kindness and compassion.. and no doubt.. he is Heaven bound.

Very very sad. We mourn only for ourselves and those that loved him. Doug is back HOME with his family.

Love and peace to you, brother!

Heather

Ward wrote:

Jesse- You LOOK Great! Are you sure they didnt fib to you about your %? just to create a little drama, and maybe get you fired up a bit? Seriously, I would love to look like you! Really love the show. This is your time to shine bud! Eat it up! (but watch the trans fat!)
-BackRubCub

sally a. yocum wrote:

I was shocked to hear about Doug. I loved his gorgeous blue eys and his smile. So sorry for your loss.
Just remember, it is better to patch things up (as you did) for you never know what tomorrow might bring.

Emily Moreno wrote:

I, like my sister Patricia Trujillo, remember Doug well. And yes, he did have family, he had all of us. He was my cousin's son and the last time I saw him was when his mom Deanna was dying of brain cancer and he came up to see us because we all made the trip up to Arbuckle to see her one last time. My aunt Norma loved Doug and his sister Sandee. We were all proud of him and his accomplishments. Too bad he had to go so young but I believe Skip and Dee (his parents) must have needed him by their side somehow. They were so close and loving. He will be missed by all the family. We love you Doug.

Clifton G. wrote:

Jesse, I like your up-front attitude. Many issues can be avoided by that attitude and I don't care what the "extreme health" nuts say....healthy is according to your body. Your body knows what is healthy for it and what is not. Getting to an unhealthy weight for your body...has serious consequences. Stay just like you are cause you got it all going on and look HOT AS HELL.....take care of yourself

Richard Claycomb wrote:

Hi Jesse,
After I heard about Doug, I thought about when you took the initiative to bury the hatchet with Doug in regard to the comments he had made in a magazine. You're a good role model for not only Gay men but people in general. You were able to rekindle your friendship with Doug with your apology and now you won't be one of those people who regret what they didn't say or regret what they didn't do when they had the opportunity at hand. Keep up the good work and don't give any mind to those comments about your being too much of anything. You are who you are.

jennifer wrote:

Love the show. When you said your the lesbian whisper I laughed. I still laugh when I think about it. Sorry to hear the passing of Doug.

Heidi wrote:

Hi Jesse,
Thank you for sharing the info about Doug.
It seems he brightened up the place for us and God is sure selfish for taking the good ones.

Marcos wrote:

Jesse, u seem like a great guy , jus because u wanted to know the truth from your friend,or someone u thought was your friend there is nothing wrong with that,and jackie should atlest understand that, for them to focus on your weight is not fair u look good, dont pay attention to them because if u are happy with yourself and love yourself thats more important in the end. I hope and wish you happiness. I hope you have a special someone in your life you seem like a good guy , with alot to offer , take care god bless

ROD in NYC wrote:

Although I appreciate t.v. "drama", I DO hope the show heads back in the direction of Fitness. It's been a while since I've seen an actual training session on this show.

Except for Doug's untimely passing, the chunk of the show is getting a bit too scandal-driven for me. I don't mind some dirt here and there, but...BALANCE would be nice!

P.S. Jesse, I have this sick fantasy where you and Peeler hook up to "work out" your differences! LOL
Now THAT would be Must-See TV

The Kid wrote:

Jesse,

You crack me up!! That comment you made about "Stop, drop and roll to put out the flame" was just too funny!!! You remind me of a great friend of mine. You are quick, vivcious, and the cutest face!!! You were even cuter with that hat turned backwards , in a hoody, and stubble on your face!!! You ARE the personality on that show...I just LOVE you!!
Stay REAL..

rhaya wrote:

Jesse,
You are so great on the show. We look forward to watching you each week. It is great to see how many people adore you..........men and women...you are the bomb. Keep it up.

Cameron wrote:

Rest in peace, Doug.

kc wrote:

Jesse
We will miss Doug soooo much! Doug was a great guy. We hated to watch the drama between u two -and we were suprised u showed some maturity FINALLY talking to him. (alcohol helped that I bet) But I bet now it felt good that you made ammeans before one died.
Now we have to tell u to GROW UP DUDE!!!!!!! U r way over the top , you r distracting! u act like a LITTLE boy who isn't getting enough attention ALL THE TIME. SETTLE DOWN AND THINK BEOFRE YOU REACT !! U r making an ass of yourself. U are our least favorite on the show -you r lazy, and overweight, and it seems like the only thing you exercise is your mouth.I don't tell u this because I hate u but if you were working for me you would be on probation until you get it together. You have so much going for you being on a T.V. show etc.. don't ruin it for yourself. I bet in person u are a great, intelligent guy - you probaly are playing a bravo role or beefing it up for the cameras-so I do apologize if I sound harsh. Jackie has her own issues (just like everyone does) Jackie is not god like everyone's trying to make her out to be -so quit kissing her ass. No hard feelings just being honest.

Grace wrote:

Jesse - you should be the next one at the Laugh Factory:) 'Lesbian Whisperer' - that was a classic.

Joan K. wrote:

HI Jesse,
I see that in this next episode you call Rebecca a slut and she throws a glass of something at you, I think the truth hurts that is why she let you have it. She acts like a slut but maybe it would be better if you kept that to yourself, in the end everything will get back to normal and Jackie is going to wise up and see that this was just a fling. Rebbeca is not gay and the first chance she gets to go to bed with a guy she is going to take it, she is too into the penis thing. I have to say this girl does get on my nerves but you just have to count to 10 or however long it takes you to feel in control and let it drop.
Love the show

marymary wrote:

Jesse,
Hasn't anyone (read: especially you) considered that Rebecca may have manufactured her attraction to Jackie in order to get more on-camera time this season? I am in no way minimizing the hotness of Jackie and I'm sure she's turned her share of straight girl's heads, but something really rings false about their relationship so far... If you can call hanging out for weeks, nuzzling and then first kiss in a rest-room a relationship. I know she doesn't want to hear it right now, because apparently criticism=jealousy, but she should really consider finding someone whose main benefits from having her as a girlfriend don't involve her career/exposure. Rebecca ain't right...

ayesha wrote:

Jesse,

Hey you! you usually make me laugh with all of your drama, but this week you were a little mean. I don't care if you don't like Rebecca but obviously your 'best friend' does, so why not be more supportive. Our friends don't always pick who we think they should be with, but if you care about her chill out on the mean comments about Rebecca. I think you are a little jealous of the attention she is getting form Jackie. Are you in love with Jackie or what? Sometimes you can speak volumes without uttering a word. Think about that the next time the urge strikes to call Rebecca a name.

and by the way you are not fat!

Kris Ann wrote:

Jesse
Your adorable and real! Love ya!
Want to know more about your culinary endevors- is there a website? We need more of you !
KA

Kainoa wrote:

It is with a heavy heart that I write to express my feelings about Doug Losing his battle. He seemed to be a genuinely REAL person, who cared abouteveryone that he came into contact with. The show has lost a Great Guy. I am truly sorry for the loss that you and the others may feel.

Teddy Allen wrote:

Jesse,

Due to limited time I have not searched but do you have a way to email you directly and ask a question.

Thanks,

Ted

RuthAnne. wrote:

Jesse, I am so glad that you had a chance to make things right with Doug. It takes a strong individual to say they are sorry. What a perfect gift you gave him for his birthday. I think Doug thought a lot of you, in fact, I know he did.

Hang in there Jesse, I am very proud of you.

I am a 250 pound, 5'4", 53 year old single mom. I could lose half of that weight and live a long healthy life. Easier said than done.


scott wrote:

I am so sorry about Doug--it just makes me cry to think about it all. I can't imagine what you all have been going through. Watching the last episode, with him talking about his parents early deaths was so prophetic. At least he had a great last birthday party and was surrounded by people who loved him--families fight, bitch, etc. but in the end they are the ones who love you. You were all his family.

On a lighter note--I totally agree with you being wierded out by the Rebecca/Jackie thing. I came to LOVE Jackie last season, but was really upset by the way she just shoved Rebecca aside when Tiffany showed up at the restaurant. I could just feel the hurt--not fair, not nice. They say gay men are whoring bastards?? Oy. Anyway--love the show, love you--sending you all good thoughts and hope your hearts are healing. PEACE.

john ortiz wrote:

jesse, don't stress over it. she's a girl that just wants some t.v. time. she's not into jackie. she's jackies rebound.

From John, Manifa's friends from the Ritz...

Rich K wrote:

I am heartbroken over Doug. People like him should go on forever. Us viewers will miss him.

P.S. I love you, Jesse.

Robert wrote:

Jesse

Every week I enjoy watching how you try to keep a toe on both sides of the garden. ( good and bad boy ) I sounds as if Doug was someone who touched our life in great ways. Don't let the deal with Jackie and the Tramp get you all twisted up. Jackie will see the light with her own eyes VERY soon. Just keep your eyes on the prize of life and continue to build your self as a better person every day. PS. Don't worry about the slightly extra "gay weight", you still look like a rock star, hottie stud!.

Dana wrote:

Jesse

I just love you. You are not fat!!!! I think you're hot!!! I would rather you live your life and enjoy it, than starve yourself and hate yourself. I have alot of frinds that do this.

I just love you and Jackie both.

You are both great inspirations!!!

Fred P wrote:

Hey, Jessie I have watched the show from the beginning it is my favorite reality show I am reading your blog for the first time I love you man you seem to be a really cool and down to earth person I am a 48yo african american male who was over weight most of my adult life when I turned 40 I decided to get healthy and lose the weight when I started I weighed about 280lbls I am 5'11" I am 190lbs and in great shape I am very toned have a flat stomach where there use to be a beer gut and I did not and do not drink beer (wine is my choice) I look early 30's now and run 6 days a week ( I split this 4:30am 5 miles 4:00pm 5 miles daily only once on SAT. Sun. is a day of rest) and lift moderate weight 3 times a week with arobics. I work out at least 3 to 3 1/2 hours a day including the runs I started with just walking 5 days a week and as the years went on I just increased my work out little by little until I am at the workout I do daily I work from home so my time is my time I lost the weight over several years averaging 10 to 15 pounds per year it is permanent
weight lost because I learned how to eat right and excercise daily when reaching goal weight I will cut down on the running so much just use it as a weight control that is my story on how I got fit and stay fit I plan on losing 10 more pounds before reaching my goal. Jessie I was so sorry to hear about Doug's passing I only found out today by reading your blog what a shock he was on the last show and then no more he was my favorite trainer on the show I thought he was great looking and in great shape I feel he has gone to a better place my prayers be with him. Jessie I know this was long winded but I just wanted to let you know a little bit about my journey as I watch your journey weekly.

Love Ya,

Fred

Jean Olsen wrote:

I think u need to back off on Jackie and Rebecca, Jesse....what kind of a best frend are you, to act so jealous? Is it because Jackie isn't paying u as much attention? Think about it.

D wrote:

Jesse,

This is the first time that I have actually ever caught the show and just my luck...there's a marathon on BRAVO! I can't believe I haven't watched before...what a great show. I must say that I am completely disturbed to hear about Doug, especially considering his fear of death and intimate moment shared with Cheo. Thank you for writing about him. It was clear that he meant a lot to the entire crew at Sky Lab.

zena wrote:

you know what jesse??? ur name rhymes with MESSY! And that sir, is what you are. word. good bye.yeah..leave rebecca alone. can you please lose some weight..its gross. you are a trainer be professional! was that water cold? mmmmhmmm..

Jason wrote:

Jesse,
You are a cute guy. I don't know why everyone seems to think you are so insecure. And from one normal gay guy to another, I don't think you are fem. Be you!

Angie wrote:

To Jackie and all the trainers at SKY, I wish to extend my deepest, heartfelt sympathy to each of you over the loss of Doug. I know how sad you each must be over losing someone that was so truly caring and loving. He will missed by all. You will all be in my thoughts and prayers.
Angie

Bud wrote:

Jesse, Jesse, Jesse,
Gotta love you baby. Going public with all the drama at the gym has got to have it's moments. They probably edit the good stuff (substance) for what sells. ie; DRAMA.
I too have "happy fat" and think I'm gorgeous. (Isn't that what matters). I've kept in shape all my life. Now I'm nesting like your clients. You've inspired me to get off my ass and get back to it... Like you, it shouldn't take too much effort. (6'2"; 212lbs)
An old Lesbian friend told me years ago, "you don't shit where you eat". Jackie could stand to heed the advice. Hey, we all like being "in love" but get over it. We're not kids anymore. This is the grown up world and she should conduct herself accordingly. What next? Hickies around the neck?
I don't think you're "Jackies bitch". Just a concerned friend. Rebecca's history. Everyone knows what happens with "rebound" love. The thing is, will she leave or stick around and continue to humiliate herself?
Anyway, love you, love the show.
ttfn~BDV~

Cheri wrote:

I'm really sorry to hear about Doug's Passing. He seemed like such a nice person, very genuine. He will be missed on the show!!

Cheri

Shane wrote:

Jesse,
You were completely justified in what you had to say to Rebecca and good for you to confront her FAKE persona! Attention wh#re is just the tip of the iceberg with her!
Good for you and way top handle yourself in that uncomfortable situation.

S

R. Christian Anderson wrote:

Jesse.. just wanted to say I am so proud of you. When you went to Rebecca and took the high road by apologizing, it was a clear sign you are maturing at a rapid rate. You were absolutely right that Jackie and Rebecca deserve to find their own happiness. They are over 21 and can decide what is right for themselves. Giving them that permission will allow them to feel comfortable opening up to you and you're going to find you will have 2 very best friends instead of losing one. Good job, buddy!

Mitch wrote:

dear Jesse:

First of all, I think the way Bravo is "using" Doug's obvious passing as a "lure" for next weeks episode is atrocious...insensitive, stomach turning that literally makes me reexamine's Bravo's credibility as a network with class, sophistication and the like.

Most importantly I wanted to say something to you regarding Doug's passing and your relationship to it, not meant to come off in a superior manner, or a lecture per se, but honest heartfelt thoughts of caring, compassion and empathy to someone I believe to be a lot myself when I was your age - a good person but who somewhat insecurity and unfortunate treatment by others during his lifetime has caused a bit of bitterness, anger and dismay at miserable, underserving of affection to some people who have crossed your path heretofore has caused you to be defensive, caustic, and seemingly "mean" which really just a defense mechanism that is normal, natural and so preciously human. Doug was in your life for a reason, and though he may have hurt you, whether intentionally or untinentionally (doesnt really matter as result is the same), what I hope you take away from it (as it has reinforced as well for me) is the lesson that lies therein. When my father all of a sudden, without any perecursor or event leading rationally up to it, up and divorced my mother, left our house and for all intents and purposes "cut himself off" from my sibling and I, at 19 years of age I reacted as I guess most "children" would. In college at the time and naturally having financial woes, my father was paying $400 for my yearly car insurance as his contribution to my total expenses, college, life and all...($400 for a year of car insurance definitely suggests I didn't graduate 10 years, or even 20 years ago! - I'm 46 actually)...anyway, when my father called me one day (our communication obviously was strained at the time) to me he wasn't going to pay my car insurance anymore, I went "off" and said a whole bunch of things I don't recall specifically but much to the nature of I can't beleive you are doing this...to which he replied SPECIFICALLY "well you don't think I'm gonna support you for the rest of your life do you?" to which I promptly and with vehemence (the same bitter, defensive, hurt, betrayed, destructive vehemence that you felt about what Doug said that you felt was a slight) - "No but it would have been nice if you had supported me until I was 18 like any decent, loving, and normal father, unlike yourself!" There was some more exchanges, and finally as the barbs flew I shouted "Why don't you just drop dead!" and slammed the phone (which had a rotary dial (1979!)down. Come to find out in subsequent months information I did now know (as I am sensing similar to your finding out info about Doug subsequent to your "falling out") - my father has been diagnosed with an inoperable, terminal brain tumor and had maybe a year, give or take to live, when his behavior radically shifted months earlier and he began divorce proceedings. Although I'll never be sure, I am pretty much convinced that in my father's mind (the one that was thinking clearly as I had known it to be the first 18 years or so of my life) felt that if he alienated my mother, sister and myself, and made up feel hate, disgust, anger, etc with him, that perhaps his passing would be less painful, less of a deep wound. But the major point of my telling you this is that after I told him to drop dead he did, and I lived for many years afterward thinking it was my fault (intellectually I knew of course it wasn't, but emotionally was quite a different story). And moreover, these were the last words I said to my father. I wouldn't wish that on anyone, including my worst enemy. However, the great thing about your situation with Doug is that before he died you managed to make things right, and make "amends" so to speak, and resolve (thank the higher power that made it so), so that if you had not, and he died, you were not left with all kinds of awful feelings as I was, knowing that you there was a rift and bad blood between you and someone that now could never be fixed/healed/...made right. Remember that. It's a powerful lesson. If you carry it with you as you continue your journey it will be your "best friend" in terms of the connections you have, maintain and grow between yourself and any other individual, in whatever relationship or capacity - lover, friends, relative, soulmate! Since my last words to my father I have never, and hope to never, leave another individual without telling them how i feel about them, and what they mean to me, and even if I am not liking them at the present moment or we are having troubles, that down deep I love them, or care for them, or else I wouldn't spend/expend any energy on working on the relationship. Sticks and stones break bones, but words can scar/disfigure and break your soul. I'd take sticks and stones hurled at me all day, any day, than the other optoin. I AM SO GLAD that your ever growing maturity delivered you to a place that certainly has to make you feel proud at the outcome, given the awful taking of Doug, who I'm sure truly cared about you, and just said an unfortunate thing, as all of us who are human tend to do, and people will continue to do as you ease on down the road dude. Keep the lesson close to heart, keep Doug's memory even closer, and I wish you the best. P.S. I'll take a gorgeous face like yours with 20% body fat anyday, over a so-so, not so hot face with under 10% ANYDAY! And if the face, even with 25% bodyfat or more comes with a brain, and moreover a loving heart, especially the loving heart and soul, then there's nothing to discuss...

Finally, there will always be people with agenda's (although annoying they provide some "spice" I guess - to a point), but don't lower yourself and be one of them. Let your agenda be no agenda - and cream always rises to the top, so if you're the cream of the crop (and you are)...let nature do the rest...

Best wishes, respectfully
Mitch

Aprille wrote:

Please remember one thing..No more pain for him..I'm sure that at the end of everything he only( Doug) had good thoughts of everyone he knew..obviously that was the person he was. Jesse good for u for stepping up and admitting that u were wrong..U should be proud of yourself..God bless

Jesse S wrote:

I can not express how sadden and upset I am by the passing of Doug Blasdell. In a previous comment about 6 months ago I had said that he was the most amazing, good looking, and cutest guy ever. It was the episode that Doug was playing with Jesse about hooking up that I realized what a great heart he had. He was playful, and even though I never met him I know that one day I shall but not on this earth. I don’t like to say I am sorry because there is nothing to be sad about. God was missing an angel, and he obviously felt Doug was the perfect person to fill that spot. I hope you guys the best of luck, and carry on with your hard work, dedication, and love for your clients, friends, and your viewers.

Xoxo,
Jesse S

p.s. In life we have ups and downs… but we get through it together, and you guys have all your viewers, friends, and family to get through this time of hardship (trust me I know hardship. I found out I was HIV+ on my 19 birthday, and still am dealing with the shock, but I carry on because life has a reason). You have to remember that Doug’s watching you guys so make him proud.
Jesse S.

aja wrote:

hey jesse,
this is actually my first time watching this show. i didnt watch the first season. well i think that you were right to apologize to rebecca because her and jackie are grown women. i know that you felt that you were losing a friend but there are some things you dont always tell jackie. you just have to be her friend and support every decision that she makes in her life. i have watched the previous shows and i see how much jackie really cares about you, so you dont need to worry about losing her or feeling left in the dark. secondly it was good that you were able to go to doug and get youll relationship back in order before his untimely death. it just shows how important people are in our lives and how we shouldnt let little minute things separate us. well i enjoy the show and i enjoy watching you do your thing. continue to keep your head up and remember those that are in your life today. dont allow the little things to ruin a friendship. we never know when it will be time. good luck.

lee wrote:

The clueless "male model"'s comment's about the war, how totally uneducated he is. Gee, flying planes into our buildings not WMD? Get a clue. It's a good thing your not over there fighting for our freedom you apparantly don't believe in. It is comments and people like that that will get more American's killed. Thank God for our real troops!!

Alex wrote:

I was stunned when I wqoke up in the middle of night and caught the episode that sugessted that Doug was on dialysis and not doing well. Then first thing this morning I got online to find out what had happened and have found out that he died. It is even hard to type these words. He had such a light and spirit about him and seemed to have very few judgements and hangups about various types of people. Very saddened by this.
My prayers and best wishes to all who were touched by his light in person and over the airwaves.

steven wrote:

jesse

I bet you hear this all the time but Iam your biggest fan. I love the show what i like most is that you give people like me hope. I am a bit over weight and since i started to watch the show i have lost 68 pounds. I dont think that i could have done it with out you.When jackie was talking about you being fat i about died.You are so sexy and dont let anyone tell you different.I cant wait for the new season i hope you do well.I give my regards about doug u know i was thinking doug is in a damn better place than this world we all miss so much.It wont be the same on workout with out him just go on but never forget and never let his memoery die.

staphanie wrote:

omg.... jesse i agree with uyou i think rebecca was trying to get more fame and she got it by getting with the boss she is a total chusma..... lol y didnt she bacome a lesbian before but now she likes girls all of a sudden what total hypocrite

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